FUCK YOU AND YOUR WHITE GUILT TOO!

I seriously felt the urge to punch somebody at work today. I don't often feel the urge to be violent, but sometimes I do, and today was the day. ...and here is why.

I did my route, no big deal, got back into town went to check in, and started talking with one of my better acquaintances there. I started telling him about Ridwan and how cool he is. How Ridwan's parents did time in prison during apartheid. How Ridwan himself did time. Suddenly, here it comes, out of nowhere and completely unextected: "I don't want to feel guilty for something I didn't do." And the other one I hate so much, and yes, I've heard this bullshit many times before: "I think we should just move on and put this behind us."

"I don't want to feel guilty for something I didn't do."

No where in our conversation, whitey, did I ask you to feel guilty. That, many of you, is your own fucking problem. I could really give a rats ass. This, in my opinion, is what you are really saying. "There is a perceived threat to my privilege. I don't have to feel guilty about MY privilege. That's just the way it is. It isn't my fault." No where, whitey, did I say anything about you having to feel guilt. A reminder; That is your own fucking problem and maybe something you should deal with. But here you go, getting all defense about a perceived threat because you do feel guilt, reacting in a way that brings all the issues back to you, whitey.

This also reminds me of when Ward Churchill spoke at Reed College, a school for very privileged white folks. After Ward finished lecturing on law, legal ramifications of treaties, what really belongs to Indians, genocides and war crimes world wide, and as usual, his discussion of Madeline Albright's genocidal message about Iraqi babies. What does the first whitey male do? He gets up there and makes it all an issue about me. He starts whining about imaginary acts of deportation. And in the end, he was finally honest about his bullshit: "WHAT ABOUT ME?"

This aint about you, whitey! This is about justice for crimes past and current. YES! Current, mother-fucker! This is about making the world a better place which, whitey, does include the fact you WILL have to give up your privilege which you propogate as freedom.

"I think we should just move on and put this behind us."

Of course, this would be mighty convenient for you now, whitey, wouldn't it. Never having to have ANY justice for crimes of the past or present let alone the future ones. "Darling, I raped you three nights ago. I think we should move on and get over it, don't you?" Pretty fucking convenient words for the perps, eh!

But wait. You said you didn't want to feel guilty for something you didn't do. Then why the fuck do you? I mean, you wouldn't be bringing it up out of nowhere in a coversation if you didn't actually feel it, right? Why the fuck do you feel guilty if you didn't do anything, and why should I fucking care when I am just talking to you about my new friend? How did this suddenly become a conversation about your lily white ass and your white fucking guilt?

Now if you're reading this, fellow at my work, then I want you to read this very carefully, and same with all of you whitey's who feel this stupid guilt and bring it up in conversations about race, history, or whatever, and suddenly make it a conversation about YOU, ok, here's my message:

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOUR GUILT! KISS MY FLAT RED-NIGGER ASS!