"...Throw All the Ingredients Into the Bowl and Mix."

I am a mixed-blood. I have ancestry from many nations: Alsea, Klickitat, Lower Umpqua, Finnish, English, Dutch, Scots, and Irish. Although I am half white, no one asks me about my whiteness because I "look" Indian. People have asked me about my whiteness but only after I told them the above and ONLY as a joke. I have NEVER been mistaken for white. However, if you saw my naked belly (which you probably never will) or my naked ass (which you never will), you will realized that indeed, I am part white.

I've been thinking about mixed bloodness all day. How racism is thrown at mixed bloods from all sides. The stories I've heard from people I knew that were Indian and white and how their Indian folks refused to accept them because they were part white and how whitey refused to accept them because they were part Indian. I've been thinking about what my sweetie, Rhonda, goes through. I've been thinking about what Felicia goes through. Too white to be Indian, too Indian to be white.

I'm sure you all have seen "Braveheart," that Mel (Rot In Hell) Gibson made about William Wallace in 13th century Scotland. I'm sure you remember the scene after the king reintroduced the law that stated noblemen get to rape Scots women on the day of their wedding. Why? Do you remember what the king said? It was something like: If we can't destroy them as a people, we'll breed it out of them.

In my self-educated opinion, mixed blood as "race" is by design. There is a BIA (Bureau of Indian Affairs) document that states: stick to the 1/4 blood quantum, encourage intermarriage, and we'll breed the Indians out of existence and thus solve our "persistent Indian problem." Mixed bloodness is by empirical design that has existed long before Euro's came here and started doing it to us Indians. Mixed bloods are "designed" to be the people they are today. People who are torn but more often than not pulled to an indigenous pathway. Many mixed bloods are lost. And there is a reason for this. It was done by a eugenics lie. It is a design and tool of empire in my opinion. And mixed bloods WILL get shit from all sides.

Mixed bloods in the Indian world aren't Indian enough to be Indian nor white enough to be white. They never belong. It is more liberal today, than say 30 years ago, and the darker folks are more accepting (at least in Indian country) of mixed bloods now than they were. They are, indeed, still racist against mixed bloods.

I have seen and/or heard of the same shit happening in Black and Asian communities. I'm sure it happens in most communities.

I was talking with a friend of mine about this. She has a neice and nephew by the same parents; a Hispanic father and white mother. She worries that these kids "will" to through getting shit from ALL sides. They will find acceptance amongst some folks for sure, but somewhere at sometime, people from all sides will give them shit. You are not dark enough to be Hispanic, not white enough to be white. The other issue here is, that the neice can pass for white.

I believe, and we can discuss this here or not because it is going to be something that eats at me for a while, is that "mixed race" is created by imperical design. It is a tool in order to create a lack of unity amongst a people to the point where they can organize and fight back effectively against empire. Fact is, though, folks, we are all mixed. There is no such thing as "racial purity." There never has been, there never will be. But NOT ONLY will empire beat us to f***ing death with our various races, we will too. Empire has "designed" us to fight amongst each other so they don't have to do their own dirty work.

Take this same pattern, and you can overlay it on sexism, classism, and many other isms I'm sure. We have been "designed" to fight amongst ourselves, "mixed blood" being part of that design.

This doesn't happen so much to me because people don't get to see my white belly or white ass. As well, I'm probably about the darkest Indian in my family. Racism has so many different facets it's like a crystal that hangs in a window. Not only do you get the various sparkly faces of the jewel, but it shoots off all sorts of colors all over the room.