Bitter

Today...I'm a little bitter.

I don't mean to be, and I probably shouldn't, but I just got to thinking about an e-mail I received yesterday.

An employee from the Natve American Youth Association had heard through a friend of mine that I was leaving KBOO's radio show, "Mitakuye Oyasin." She was wondering if David Liberty would be interested in working with a few of their employees who are interested in doing radio. I informed her that David would probably be very interested in this and replied as much to both her and David.

But, you know what, I have tried for YEARS to get folks from NAYA to get involved in radio and television. I actively recruited them. I e-mailed. I made phone calls. I got tired of trying because I received absolutely ZERO responses. **sigh**

Now that my loud fucking ass is making way for others, they are more than happy to join in on the fun.

I shouldn't be a Bitter Ass about this, but I am. I am also happy they are actually going to work with David, even though for years they wouldn't even respond to my requests. At least they are doing it now.

I also think of when Shusli and I went to their school and tried to get them to be interested in hosting "Blackfire" a Dine punk band, back in November. Nope! Not interested. They don't want a band like that bringing "the wrong element" to their students. Oddly, a few years before when they were still located on Mississippi, Blackfire did a fund raiser for them. I know I shouldn't be bitter, but I just have to air these things before I move on.

I am seriously happy that these folks are FINALLY actually intrerested in doing radio NOW THAT I'M LEAVING! I am also pissed off and hurt because it took my leaving to finally get some folks seriously interested. I guess they didn't want to work with me. I guess they were just waiting for me to leave.

I knew that if I left, folks would actually start getting interested in media. This, however, hurts as well as makes me happy.

I am a Bitter Ass.