Reception Photos

Shusli and I both have photos on our blogs of our reception. Click the photo to go to my photo blog. Click here to go to Shusli's.

Columbus Isn't Dead

What Columbus did was colonization. He came here, slaughtered the people to more easily steal their resources. He was the spear point.

That system has not died. Look at Iraq and Afghanistan. Look at all the genocidal wars in between.

It didn't begin with Chris. It didn't begin in 1492. The Irish have been going through their genocide for 800 years. It began in the Western Hemisphere in 1492. It is starting to show signs of weakening. The monster is showing signs of weakness.

REVOLUTION NOW!

You can kill the man, you can't kill the Revolution!

"...lost..." Chris pt. 2

I don't like using the term, "lost," when it comes to Indians. Example: Indians "lost" their languages.

Truth is, we didn't lose shit.

When we or others say that Indians "lost" something that implies a certain level of simplicity to an otherwise complex issue. "I lost $5 at the casno." "I lost my luggage when it fell off of my car." "I lost my nose ring. I swear I set it right here."

Our languages, our culture, our lands were not "lost." They were STOLEN. It took a whole lot of horrific brutalization, the same style of brutalization that the U.S. is passing on to Iraq, Afghanistan, and soon Iran, in order to FORCE folks to give up to the empire that which DOESN'T BELONG TO THE EMPIRE.

Thousands upon thousands of Indian children had to be beaten, raped, tortured, imprisoned, and bear witness to murder of their comrades to IMPOSE a psychological condition that which RIGHTFULLY belonged to them, their language. Destroy their language, destroy their culture, is what America believes. When a peoples are DESTROYED, you can take all of their resources for yourselves and continue to humiliate and dominate them as an other in order to keep them down and pretty much "powerless" to get anything back. In other words, America is a "might makes right" nation.

This, of course, started when you all drew "first blood," October 12, 1492. The little red niggers that could be so easily made into slaves with just 50 or 60 men were shown a sword by Chris C. A red nigger male ran his hand along the sword, was cut, and started bleeding. Thus Chris sent a message that day, give us everything or we will cut you to pieces. This system of thinking has YET TO STOP!

Chris, Pt1

One time, about, I don't know, 6 or 7 years ago, I was invited to an Indigenous Day Celebration at a pizza joint here in town. I had never heard of "Indigenous Day," but I thought it was interesting enough. Lots of Revolutionary speeches were made. Then I realized: Indigenous Day happens on what is federally recognized as Columbus Day.

Up until that point, I had always believed Columbus Day was on one specific day, October 12. You know, like Christmas, New Year, the Fourth of July. Suddenly it was a floating holiday like alleged Thanksgiving. (Floating holiday, floater in a toilet).

So, it still confuses the fuck out of me. There is some sort of psychological separation.

I was asked to participate in a Columbus Day special with KBOO. When I was first asked, I ASSUMED that it was on Friday, October 12. But it was actually yesterday, October 8, the day RECOGNIZED as Columbus Day. What? Growing up, Columbus Day was always on the 12th, and I have NO IDEA how or when it became a floater. It seems to create some sort of psychological separation between the heatless piece of shit Chris was to making it somehow easier to swallow by the populace.

That said, I will probably be writing about the piece of shit throughout the week in order to wrap my mind around the confusion of a floater holiday and what the piece of shit really was which IS a genocidal maniac bent on greed. Like Shusli says in her blog, he didn't start out with genocide in his heart, but it did indeed follow.

"[We're] So Tired..."

As you may know, or at least understand, Shusli and I are both DOG TIRED!

Which, of course, made me think of Madeline Kahn singing "I'm so tired" in Blazing Saddles.

For the last several months, a huge amount of our energy, ESPECIALLY Shusli's, went into our marriage ceremony and culminated in our reception which took place yesterday. Photos will eventually follow, probably in a week or so, on my photos blog.

Shusli and I were both so tired. Her feet were painfully sore and have been for the last several days. I got hives for the end of it all.

The reception went well. It started Saturday night with the cleaning of Liberty Hall. Sunday morning Shusli and I did a bunch of set up. Early in the afternoon some folks showed up to take the tables. That's right! I don't know what the miscommunication was and where it happened, but as I stayed pretty much calm through the whole process of wedding planning and etc., this one little issue SET ME THE FUCK OFF! Of course, I did not let them take the tables we were using. Don't know what happened, don't care, it's all over with now.

I was seriously impressed with the turnout, about 50 people came and went throughout the four hours of our celebration. It was really really good! We danced some which was really fun!

First person to show was Lisa Hughes. Our friend Heidi lead a few folk dances (many heard the word "dance", and there was suddenly an exodus). Rhonda's grandma, mom, one of her brothers showed. The highlight however was when Maire and Donovan showed up dressed to the nines (did I say that right?).

A good time was had by all. I wish to thank all the folks who showed to help us celebrate the beginning of our lives together, and to all those who were unable to make it who gave us support in one form or another.

We ended the evening by me rubbing Shusli's feet and...which I almost fell asleep on the couch while doing. Shusli stayed up all night talking with Rachel...Oh...THANK YOU RACHEL FOR ALL OF YOUR HELP! They talked all night, and now I dragged my ass out of bed to write to all of you folks, eat breakfast, and drag my tired ass off to work to drive a huge machine at 55mph down the street. Feeling safe? It's OK, really, I've done this so much and occasionally get to take naps. I'm really good at my job.

...oh...And thank you Felicia for your help.

SHUSLI! I LOVE YOU BEYOND ALL COMPARISON! YOU ARE MUCH MORE THAN I HAD EVER IMAGINED IN A LOVER-LOVE! I LOOK FORWARD TO OUR LIFETIME TOGETHER AND BEYOND!

--HH

How Much Will You Pay Me to Kidnap, Beat, Rape, Torture, and Murder Your Children?

http://www.edmontonsun.com/News/Edmonton/2007/10/04/4551172.html

How much can I pay you to kidnap, beat, torture, imprison, rape, and sometimes murder you children? Canada is getting away with genocide by paying out money to some of its victims. My opinion varies greatly from the woman quoted in this article. I DON'T WANT TO MOVE ON! I WANT SOME REAL REAL FUCKING JUSTICE FOR THESE CRIMES!

So, how much money would it cost me to come to your homes, kidnap, your children, and beat, rape, torture, sell into sex slavery, etc., YOUR CHILDREN?

Most of this money, of course, does not actually go to the victims. Most of it goes to the lawyers.

Make Me Fucking Vomit

http://www.commondreams.org/archive/2007/10/05/4342/

Al Gore is up for the Nobel Peace Prize. WHAT A BUNCHA FUCKIN' BULLSHIT!

I have not seen his movie, but I did see a presentation by some dude whose name I forget at a hippy fest who was trained at some institute supported by Al Gore or founded by him or something. It was a very clear and defined presentation, then he got into all this pro-America bullshit that is supposed to ingeniously save the world. I know what America is all about, and it is about genocide and stealing the wealth of others for the already wealthy.

That aside, Al Gore also has all sorts of blood on his hands. Sending arms to Indonesia in the early '90's so the Indonesian military could more easily kill East Timorese. His participation in the '98 bombing of Iraq. The war in the former Yugoslavia. I mean

C'MON!

I mean that's like awarding that horrific genocidal fuck Henry Kissinger the Nobel Peace Prize...

...Oh

...wait

...They did!

Carry on, then.

PS I will leave you with a quote from Al Gore when asked during his bid for presidency, which he won and the sold out to Bush, he was asked about the 5,000 children dying in Iraq due directly to the sanctions imposed by the U.S. government. Al's answer was the same as Hillary's when she was called out on her genocidal war mongering Bush licking ways by Mike Gavel:

[LAUGHTER}

HAHAHAHAHAHA! Dead non-white non-wealthy non-Amercans out of sight out of mind. Who gives a fuckin' shit, right?! Give the man a Peace Prize!

A Couple of Announcements

Tomorrow, Sunday, October 7, Shusli and I are having a wedding reception. We were married on September 23rd. I Love Shusli more than you all can imagine. I have never met such a wonderful and fantastic woman. I have never been so in-Love. We are in the relationship that we have always dreamed of.

The reception will be at Liberty Hall, 311 N Ivy St., Portland, Oregon. Hope you can be there. It's a voluntary potluck as well. You can bring something, but you don't have to.

FBI, NSA, and CIA folks are welcome because, well, we all who will be there are hoping we can get you to struggle on the side of the people instead of the side of the status quo. Please be sure to identify yourselves by wearing really sharp suits and sunglasses.

Also, KBOO, the most awesome radio station in the world, is in the midst of their membership drive. You can here them at 90.7fm here in Portland, 100.7fm in the valley, 92.7fm at a few places in the gorge. You will not hear the type of radio you hear on KBOO hardly anywhere else, and it is community and volunteer driven with a handful of paid employees to keep the station operational. If you wish to donate money call 503-231-8032, or 1-877-500-5266. Or you can donate on-line by clicking the "join now" button on KBOO's website. Or you can come down to 20 SE 8th, Portland, Oregon, and meet some of the wonderful folks who put out the information and music you probably aren't gonna hear at ANY major media sources.

I Haven't Written a Poem...

I haven't written a poem in a long time.

I haven't written a poem
about the beauty in the world I see
every time I look
into Shusli's eyes.

I haven't written a poem
about how Felicia is learning to rebel
how she is embarassed to be seen with me
in public
How she would much rather
spend all her time with her friends
than anywhere near me
How it hurts and how it makes me laugh

Shusli laughs too
but not out of heartlessness
Out of complete understanding
as she has been through this twice
and knows what I am and will be going through
and knows that she will be there
to help...
really help...
with all of it.

I haven't written a poem
about how much I mess Yeti cat
Bath Matt
bringer of tobacco, cabbage leaves, corn cobs, badmitton birdies
His soft fur
his goofy demeanor
His flying leap at me
for closing the door before he could get out.

Nor have I written about
how much it hurt
losing a grandson
not yet born
Nor feeling empathy
for the loss Eli and Suzette must feel.

I haven't written poems
about the rage I feel
seeing the bruises on Rachel
after being attacked by "meth heads."
I'll leave it at that
because I could leave this
with bloody fantasies
leaving a couple of folks horribly mangled
or worse.

KBOO is a place
where I first read on the airwaves
in a forum where I am heard by folks
I don't have the honor of seeing.
It's "membership drive,"
and we are way behind.
KBOO is the only place
where you can hear so many voices
that it is like the weather here in Portland,
Wait a few minutes
and you will experience
something completely different.

I haven't written poems
about the monks in Burma, Myanmar
who are being murdered under a military dictatorship
and the people thereof
are being brutally oppressed.

I haven't written poems
of doing math in my head
realizing the Makah have killed 2 whales
in 7 years
and thousands have been killed by
Norway, Japan, Indigenous Russians, Indigenous in Alaska
by environmental damages
and even though I know these get protested
Nothing anywhere near
the intensity and vile race hatred comes out
for anyone but the Makah.
You'd think that the voices allegedly against whaling
would be thousands of more times intense
for Norway, Japan, the Environment, etc.,
but they are not
because they aren't a bunch of Red Niggers
who no longer want to be
under the thumb
of oppressive white folks.

I haven't written poems lately
of how wonderful it feels to be
in Shusli's arms
To hold here
and feel her beautiful body next to mine

Nor have I written poems about how wonderful it feels
knowing Shusli and I make a great team
as we learn more and more
how to be a great team.

I haven't written poems
about how wonderful it feels
wrapping my arms around her in bed
and knowing that I will feel her there
thousands and thousands more times
before we decide to leave this world.

I haven't written poems
about the terror and death
that the U.S. government
is putting our fellow human beings
Iraqi's
through
in order to steal their wealth
for the already wealthy.

I haven't written a poem about my Camera
an Olymps S550UV
with 18x zoom
how fun it is to take photographs
and find the beauty in the world
of a brief moment
a memory where memory fails
or not

I haven't written a poem about how happy I am
How privileged and honored I feel
to be here
in this time
in this world
with all of you.

I haven't written a poem
where I have said "thank you,"
to y'all

so....

THANK YOU!

Volksfront/Hammerskins

I was hoping to publish a photo gleaned from Portland Indy Media, but my photo download won't work, so I will publish the link to them here.

I don't really know why, but these folks don't concern me all that much. Click the link and look at the photos. These guys look like your everyday white guys I see hanging out all over the place. I think the only REAL difference between these guys and the other white guys walking down the street is that these guys are more honest about their racism and sexism. These are the guys who will walk up to you (at least in groups) and scream "white pride" at you and probably follow it with some racial epithets. The other white guys will walk up to you and say things like: "Sorry about the genocide, but just get over it."

One thing I think is funny is that many of these guys have Irish and or Scottish ancestry. My understanding is that the Irish and the Scots (especially the Irish, as my understanding goes) are "the niggers of Europe," as it was put to me.

So, anyway, the Hammerskin group of racists are coming to town to hang with the Volksfront group of racists and celebrate the 20th anniversary of the Hammerskins founding with what is called the Hammerfest in some undisclosed location.

Then there are the everyday white or white-identified folks walking down the street ready to tell Shusli and I to "JUST GET OVER IT!"

Professors Johnson Are On the Job!

Ridwan requested that Shusli and I speak at one of his classes yesterday. It worked out well considering we both had the time off.

It was a great experience working with Shusli in this manner. We are learning to work off of each other in this forum, and this was the first time we did so.

I felt like I talked way too much, but this was our first time doing this as well.

Many of the students were very curious about Shusli's experiences and observations as a mixed blood indigenous person. Shusli made the sweetest shirt before going to this class as well. She took an old Winterhawks jersey and beneath the racist picture wrote the word, "STEREOTYPE." This also required she learn a new skill on her computer which she picked up rather easily.

My favorite question was : "Why don't they teach us this in school?" I said something like, the system only cares about the system and its own survival. If you knew how awful the system was and all the crimes they commit, you would want to do something about that. Therefore, the system wants to control your education. Control the flow of information. Shusli pointed out as well that up until high school, the education system is only interested in creating workers.

Afterwards, Shusli and I discussed this and plan on learning how to feed off of each other better, and we headed to Rich's for some "Girl's Blend."

We then went to Todai where Shusli bought me a wonderful lunch of buffet sushi and much much more. What was really sweet was the place was crowded with what were obviously Japanese students, maybe close to 100 of them. We tried talking to a few but the best we got out of them was, "Japan." We were really curious about these uniformed folks. It was easy to tell the rebellious ones in the bunch. One fella was wearing white tennis shoes with orange socks. Shusli found a woman who spoke english and asked what was up. She said it was a Japanese high school class. Cool!

St. Thomas University in Minnesota Just Says No to Desmund Tutu!

Desmund Tutu is NOT allowed to speak at the University of St. Thomas in Minnesota because a few things he said in the past are considered offensive to a handful of Jewish folks.

However, Iranian President Manmoud Ahmadinejad who is a Holocaust denier was invited and allowed to speak at Columbia Unviersity.

My head is spinning!

http://www.commondreams.org/archive/2007/10/04/4301/

The Impending War With Iran Continued

MIKE GRAVEL: This is fantasy land. We're talking about ending the war. My god, we’re just starting a war right today. There was a vote in the Senate today. Joe Lieberman, who authored the Iraq resolution, has authored another resolution, and it is essentially a fig leaf to let George Bush go to war with Iran. And I want to congratulate Biden for voting against it, Dodd for voting against it, and I’m ashamed of you, Hillary, for voting for it. You're not going to get another shot at this, because what’s happened, if this war ensues, we invade, and they're looking for an excuse to do it. And Obama was not even there to vote.

TIM RUSSERT: Senator Clinton, I want to give you a chance to respond.

SEN. HILLARY CLINTON: [laughter]

--Democracy Now, 10-02-07

What we are talking about here are the lives of millions of people, and it aint nothin' but a JOKE to Hillary Clinton. This is for those of you who live in the fantasy world that the democrats are somehow different.

This also makes me think of when Al Gore, while running for President in '99 '00, was asked by an activist about the 5,000 children dying preventably in Iraq at the time. His answer: "[laughter]".

Dead darkies aint nothin' but a joke to the Democrats. Nothing will be different. The system is not going to want the system to end. The system is maintained by blood thirsty war and Americans go along with it because THEY ARE SO FUCKING STUPID!

I like it when spokeswoman, Dana Perino, was drilled about the Seymour Hersch article. Since George couldn't sell a war with Iran as a nuclear threat, he has declared the Iranian Guard as a terrorist organization (also voted for by that war mongering Lieberman loving asshole, Hillary Clinton). It's opening a door for yet another U.S. lead genocide.

Anyway, Perino said a couple of things that interested me:

"We are pursuing a diplomatic solution in Iran."

As Seymour pointed out, the Bush administration used this sam line prior to the U.S. lead illegal and genocidal invasion of Iraq.

Perino also said this: "...solve the Iranian problem." Like: The Jewish problem (or Jewish question) in Nazi Germany. Like: "...solv[ing] our persistent Indian problem."

These types of problems are dealt with by the U.S. in their usual manner:

GENOCIDE

Brutal Folks Hate Witnesses

http://www.commondreams.org/archive/2007/10/01/4236/

A recent defector says the Burmese military is killing THOUSANDS of monks and civilians. Like the white security guard in Palmdale, California, brutal folks don't like witnesses. My understanding is there is NO internet going into nor coming out of Burma.

There will be NO or minimal actions against this criminal activity. Burma musn't have any oil, like Rwanda.

Crazy Shit Is Happening!

Last night, my work calls and tells me that Lewis and Clark College is accusing me of destroying hedges and flower beds and taking out lamp posts with my truck. I did a damned good job for those folks, and not only that, I did not take out ANY hedges, flower beds, trimmed trees, or hit any lamps. There is no damage to my truck and if I actually did do something like that, I would have called and told my work as well as talked to someone at the campus and made sure they knew the damage I had done. Number one, it would be the right thing to do. Number two, if I actually did these things that would be about the only way to save my job if my job were saveable. Joe checked my truck and I informed him I'd been walking around my truck all day and there is NO damage to it nor ANY evidence suggesting I did ANY of those things. Personally, I don't ever want to go back there, not even for any event they may be putting on that I might be interested in, let alone for my work. I know, however, my work will be pushing me to head that way though. Also, oddly, I allegedly did this damage around 6:00am. I left work at 1:45pm, and there was still no call as to the damage I was told they said was definitely my fault.

Two days ago, Rachel, Shusli's daughter, was attacked by what she called a couple of meth heads. She was driving too slow for these folks, so they tail gated her. Rachel slowed down even more. The meth heads whipped around her on a double yellow line, and at a stop sign, got out of their car and attacked Rachel. Rachel, being only 115 pounds TOPS, kicked some serious ass, or should I say face. She may have broken her foot on the womans face, I'm not kidding. After the incident, she went directly to the cop shop. The two folks were arrested. I believe their ages were; woman 39, man 32. I married into an awesome family. You see, Shusli found out this fellow was arrested on meth charges two years before and he has a daughter about 15 years old and she found pictures of her. These folks were driving an unregistered car without insurance. DON'T FUCK WITH MY FAMILY!

We also have the two you know about. The miscarriage of our grandson, and the death of our cat, Yeti. Life is been crazy lately.